I finally recovered from all the pains and grudges I've had for the past few years. God knows how difficult it has been to get through it.
I'm now back on my track. Stand on my feet. Alone, stand up high (not really tall coz I am short LOL), feel free and happy.
For the very first time in my life, this year, 2010, has brought me excitement. I've accomplished what I've always wanted. I've got a beautiful (rented) house LOL, with beautiful furnitures inside (I love especially my red laptop and red fridge), I've got a better job than I can always imagine. It doesn't pay me well but it's really (strangely though) okay. I am totally broke but I eat fancy food almost everyday (thanks to my great friends LOL). I can go on line almost 24/7 and stay in touch with my old friends, my family and my students greatly.
I forgive all my ex-es, that includes my ex boyfriends and my ex bosses, I let go all my resentment, I give in to some (sweet) temptations - which I will not share here for sure LOL, I start to stop being angry all the time, I begin to feel the raindrops on my face, I try cooking other people's favorite food, I learn to have empathy and sympathy of other's circumstances, I accept the fact that I am short and fat, I survived terrible cold, I lost 4 kilos and gained 2 back LOL, and I try harder to serve the society by being a better teacher. I won't let small things ever get into my way anymore.
Yes, I am still single. People say that's my biggest failure. But for me, it's just another struggle that I have to face. But I still hang out with my friends every weekends, but I still have a guy to jog with me on Sundays, but I still have so many friends to be my shoulder to cry on, but I still can act ugly in front of my students. But I AM HAPPY at the moment. That's the most important, isn't it?
